As the skies opened up, and the sun went down, and the music blared, it all came together. For a moment we forgot what it was like to have jobs, and mortgages, and school days to plan. We forgot to lament what it used to be like when there was only the grownups and alcohol and games and late late nights. We lived in the moment and sang in the rain and wrestled with all of the ‘littles’ and forgot our worries and our regrets.
And it was good. It was good to fully appreciate where we are now. It was good to look at our life with a clear lens. And it was good to love it, unconditionally, for just a moment. To remember why we embarked upon this road in the first place. To remember why we’ve chosen this life.
At the end of the summer, after one too many long days, with needy kids, and errands to do, and responsibilities to juggle, it’s hard to see the beauty of a moment. And there it was. Just then, if only for one brief rainstorm, everything just melted away.
To grasp that moment and hold onto it is the trick. To believe in that moment during the rush of getting out of the house in the morning or fighting over homework is the challenge. To remember for just a second, before your head hits the pillow at night, that there was a bit of magic in that night.
As your life changes, so does your expectations. Crazy nights fueled by vices fade away to pizza with the kids. Sexy heels and smoky eyes lead to sensible shoes and dark circles. And it’s so hard to let go of the way things used to be. The nostalgia takes over, and you crowd around the kitchen table playing “remember when”.
It’s hard not to have moments of regret. Moments of second guessing. Moments where you just want to turn back time. And yet, there’s a beauty in the present. There’s something lovely about building families together; about watching our children grow. About celebrating new babies, and new houses, and new jobs. How do we hold onto that joy?
How do we stop life from getting in the way? To allow for the moment to happen again. To worry less about routine, and rules, and regimens and just let it be sometimes. To embrace a perfect night and to promise to do it again sometime soon?